That’s pretty much how I felt when I woke up at 7:30 this morning. I was fully awake, but I had no idea what to do with myself, so I just went back to my bed and stared at the ceiling for an hour. For the first day in nearly a year, I had nothing that needed to be done. Yeah, I know I said I was “done” after my AP exams. In reality, my workload was just considerably lighter. I still had a few weeks of school left. But now I really, truly have nothing to do. No projects. No essays. No studying. I only have to go in for an hour Tuesday morning, and I’ll be out for the summer.
This feeling will go away in about a week or so. It always does. Then my mind will turn to mashed potatoes and I’ll be gladly spending my days playing Zelda and drawing up various designs for the rest of the summer. But for now, I’m left in that odd transitional stage that never fails to mess up my cycle and bring back the fears that I may, in fact, be the second coming of the Virgin Mary. And in between my paranoid pondering about possible alien probes and Rohypnol in my daily Starbucks, I can finally reflect on my past year because I’m not moving through it at eighty-seven miles an hour anymore.
To put it simply, this year sucked major huevos. Really, it was an absolute nightmare. When I try to think of good things from this year that I’m taking away with me, visions of my head exploding into marvelous chunks of blood and guts from overexertion flash before my eyes. I guess I did enjoy U.S. History in the end, and French was a refreshingly easy and fun class. I did make some incredible new friends, too. As usual, though, the ones I liked best were so far removed from my typical group of friends that I know they’re the ones who will drift away in the least amount of time. It doesn’t help that most of them are graduating or younger than me, either. So essentially, even what I consider the best part of this year is a double-edged sword. Fabulous.
At least this summer is the beginning of the end of high school. In roughly a year, the tiresome tedium of eight-hour school days and Communism-style learning will cease to exist in the life of Gabi Bernard. I’m well aware that college is no walk in the park, so all of you university students can erase the, “You know, college presents just as many challenges as high school, if not more” you just typed into my comment box. I’m ready for new surroundings. I’m ready for new people. I’M READY TO HAVE MY OWN LAPTOP IN CLASS, DAMN IT. And to prove I’m ready, I’m going to kick my senior year’s fat ass.
Bring it on.
haha I always do that, just stare at the ceiling when I just wake up and there’s nothing to do.
Wow so lucky, I miss those days when I had nothing to do at school, when every class was like a bludge. I’m going through an exam phase right now :(.
We used to use laptops at class all the time, but it was just too distracting, people just went back to books.
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lol That’s not me at all. If I didn’t have anything to do I’d still be in the bed. I love love love to sleep. And I love when I don’t have anything to do because then I can just do whatever! ;D
And just for the record, college is way better than high school. Yeah its harder but I can tell that you’re a responsible person and will be able to handle it. The thing that most people think is hard about it is that the teachers aren’t down your throats about getting your work in or your parents aren’t knocking your door down to get you up in the mornings. There’s usually less drama too because unlike high school, most of the people don’t know each other and haven’t known each other all their lives, if that makes any sense.
I made the stupid decision to get an apartment with a friend when we started college and that was a huge mistake because we were so excited about being able to do whatever we wanted to do that going to class became the last thing on our lists. But when I actually did go to class, I loved it!
Go ahead girl and kick your senior year’s ass! lol
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You’re finally getting a break, yay! :) you should enjoy your summer, you deserve it. :D its really easy to stay productive in the summer, just get involved in things. I hope your senior year will be better than this year. :~p
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I’m so glad that summer vacation has started for me, but I’m not prepared to face junior year. I know it’s going to be hectic, and I’m taking four AP classes… And not to mention those clubs that I’m in.
I can’t wait for senior year. It’s supposed to be the “laid back” year in high school, especially after getting accepted into a college. I know a kid who got accepted into John Hopkins and he was failing Calculus. He only needed to pass a few classes to graduate.
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I cannot wait until I am able to feel the same way. I still have about month left of exams (they’re so spread out), so every day I wake up thinking of what I will revise on that day. Sometimes I just wish I could literally sleep or day! Or just waste my time doing nothing! -_- So depressing. June 27 is when it ends, I’m just waiting for that date.
Sorry that the year sucked. But I’m sure the next year will be better, bad years are always followed with better years… usually. Good luck with senior year ;)
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I can totally relate – I always hate myself after sugary foods…so I just eat toast or something when I’m angry. Nyeh.
Yeah, I think that approach is really good! But sometimes I don’t have the balls to say to someone what their problem is and stuff…I’m such a wimp sometimes :x
Thanks :D
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Are you graduating? If you are, congratulations for surviving all these years of pointless stress and almost torture, haha. I hope you have a great summer :D & Have a blast in the coming years! (: I bet it will feel really great when you get to meet new people and just have a new and refreshing outlook on life ^^
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Congrats on finishing up junior year! How I hated mine, ha. I did not enjoy a single class apart from my CAD class. Do you have any plans for the summer? Summer of my junior year I took a university class. Summers were no less work for me than during the school year up until I graduated anyway. You’ll love being a senior it’s THE BEST.
Actually, my senior year was only 4.5 hours a day, while my university first year I had 7.5 hours two days a week and 6 the other two. Depends on what you’re studying, university can be either easier or harder than high school. In my case it was more time consuming. Thank god first year is over I can actually get some university life.
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